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October 2009 
Healing the Winnie within
Jena
Suddenly I want to laugh because this whole winnie experience comes together.
Peri tells me that many of you have asked for a sign that winnie herself wants to heal.
I was going to write to winnie asking her to give us this sign by changing her icon to girl in a tree (she signed her letter with this title), then as I was doing my morning grace shower connecting hearts with all of you it suddenly all fell into place. I have been reading a bit on Ho’oponopono and how dr Len cured a whole ward of dangerous criminals simply by working on himself. Asking himself what each of these individuals represented internally and then saying to this sub personality, ‘I love you I am sorry.’ Over and over. I think each of us who is aware of winnie’s saga has to heal internally that part of us that winnie represents. And we have to apologise to winnie for keeping her stuck by not doing so til now.
My experience of Winnie? She came into my life during a great period of change. She reminded me to play and have fun with words. By doing so she helped me heal an essential part of myself that I had totally neglected. I have been neglecting that side again all this year. The side that Winnie represents to me. I keep promising myself time to write playfully, time to mess around in playpod and at diving deeper, but I never do it! Time to write just what pleases my heart without an agenda.
More than a month ago I promised myself that I would set aside one hour a day, first thing in the morning to do this. It hasn’t happened yet!
Interestingly, this is when Winnie had her tremendous fall and shattered so much of herself. I will post here later today Winnie’s letter and also the first thing I wrote after that promise to myself . Since then I’ve done nothing but make excuses why not to have this hour now.
So, I apologise to the Winnie within for this total neglect. I apologise to the Winnie without for keeping you stuck in your extreme condition by not looking after you within. I hereby pledge to do my bit dear Dryad to heal you by healing myself. I will come and dance daily at your bed with poems and word play that heal both you and me.
I love you, I am sorry.
I have to prepare now for my first client. But later I will go back to playpod and post Winnie’s letter so you can all see how severely each of us needs to do this internal work.
Hopefully Winni will give us a sign too by changing her logo to ‘the girl in the tree’.
With love,
Jena
post note:
I've come back and posted here the image created by resurrection1 that Samme mentions in the comments below.
We are all of us blessed by this interweaving of spirits
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Hi Jena,
Thank you for this wonderful sharing of love not just for everybody but also for our dear friend Winnie. I like what you said
“And we have to apologise to winnie for keeping her stuck by not doing so til now.”
For periods of time last year and up to beginning of this year, I was not online much here in Gaia. And Winnie always have letters to me saying that she misses me. Now I am here most of the time and Winnie is not here to play with us for reasons we all know. Now I feel what she must have felt. I miss her. I forgive myself and I apologise to Winnie for not being here as much.
I too have received a letter from Winnie and I felt kind of terrible because instead of writing to me I think she should be resting and recuperating. But I am delighted to hear from her and hopeful that we all will have fun and play together again.
I have blogged about inviting people to affirm Winnie's health and well being every half hour on the hour for five minutes. For those who missed it, read it here
http://princesamwise.gaia.com/blog/2008/5/for_winnie
Also for those who missed Resurrected1's healing artwork for Winnie, let me show it to you here
http://resurrectedone.gaia.com/photos/view/304018
There are lots of people out here who loves Winnie and who have done similar things. I thank you all for your love and sharing.
love and light,
Samme
Hi Samme, thanks for this. Thanks also for posting the link to Resurected1's art.
I know how you feel about feeling guilty when Winnie writes to us instead of recuperating.
She wrote that so many people helped her and wrote to her when she was in hospital over Christmas she now feels that she should personally write back to each of us, write each of us a poem or/and do a painting. This just really upsets me.
I don't think people expect this. Instead of a private poem or letter I think each of us would prefer her to use this energy to heal. Her reward to us is to heal. But as I have written above, it is us who are keeping her stuck. Each of us needs to go within and explore our 'inner Winnie' . As we heal this part of ourselves (eg through creative expression, or whatever else Winnie represents for you) Winnie herself will be miraculously healed.
Winnie is serving us. It's an act of extreme love to stay in the terrible state that she's in until we each find the courage to heal ourselves.
It is such a hard thing to get one's head around. Here is the link:
http://healingdrummer.blogspot.com/2006/07/hooponopono-by-joe-vitale.html love,
Jena
Hi Jena! What Samme said YES Ditto that! The love you share is wonderful and you're so right about our own blockages affecting the world around us in a very real way. Bows to you for acting on that, for Winnie, for us all. Hugs ((()))
Doug love your fingerprint painting and hum poem
meet you in spirit in the grace shower
have you seen? Winnie changed her icon and is 'in the shower'
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
let's dance
This is Winnie's own artwork. I've taken something of Hers and melded it with the Power of our Names…there are word dryads living within all of our names…which are speaking to each other on levels we aren't even aware of.
This was a pleasure to do. I didn't “have” the time that day to do this…but time was MADE for me to follow the prompting of Spirit and be present for our Sister's Healing.
~I'm off to make something else for her…and yes, to be present for the healing of Myself as well~~<3
Thank You Jena and Samme~<3
Winnie Update:
I have always tried not to post anything about the seriousness of Winnie's condition because I've always felt that by focusing on this it might keep her stuck there. But I'm rethinking all that and the entanglement of our lives and how when we ourselves heal inwardly we help unblock our friends who are co-creating with us, holding the pain outwardly on our behalf.
Some questions answered:
Does Winnie want to heal? Does she want the Grace shower?
Winnie was healing miraculously thanks to so many of you but then she fell very badly and was out of action a few weeks without any of us really knowing what had happened.
Some people have questioned whether Winnie actually wants the grace shower and Winnie has answered this with a resounding yes. Saying how much it has helped her, how she uses it, even describing the color of it. How after her op most people are in a wheelchair for months but she was walking in a few days. Everyone around her felt it was a miracle.
Ironically she was busy with a massive project to thank everyone and say she was healed when she fell and twisted her spine again, tore ligaments in her right wrist, broke her left arm in 2 places and more.
Also a further sign, Winnie has changed her icon and has posted what she'd doing as being 'in the shower'. So that settles that.
Why did Winnie fall when she ws healing so well?
Maybe because she spent so much of her energy trying to thank everyone who participated instead of just dancing and relishing our delight?
Maybe she is taking on this burden again for us, to give us another chance to heal our own inner Winnies??
Who knows? All I know is that when I go to playpod to write and play as promised
in order to heal the Winnie within and therefore without, I cramp up and feel foolish and wish to run like hell.
I think I'll keep my promise but do this offline so that I feel freer. It's the doing that counts not the showing. I think I'll start drawing and painting too. I have been promising myself to do this for a long time now. And never do it.
Well, I'll keep you posted. Now that I have Winnie's condition as a visible barometer of our connectedness I feel more committed to the promises I make to myself.
I love you dear Winnie, within and without.
Jena
Another apology: I said Winnie went in for more surgery which was an exaggeration. It was an epidural procedure last Tuesday.
My request to you.
Please participate in the daily grace shower
Please examine what Winnie represents to you, within. What internal subpersonality of yours needs love and support and healing?
Please come play with me in play pod. It's a scarey place to be in alone with all those labyrinths created by Fae, Dryad, Winnie, Edwina and friends.
Sorry for being a 'unpresent' recently.
Sprite, Peri, Mamakat, Martha, Ayla, Samme, Snowmoon, Aley, Will, Albert, Doug, Jami, Heather, Starseed, Resurrected1, Chee, Mary, Rapunzel, and all the rst of you. If you are reading this, then this means I mean you in particular.
I love you, I'm sorry.
with love,
Jena
ahhhh jena, my genius, jellybean of pudding-play and trampoline cartwheels!!
I am all goosebumpy and teary-eyed as I read this … particularly your last comments!
I think we have all been a bit “unpresent” lately for one reason or another …
I too am healing my Winnie-Within … and for me what that means is again, forgiving myself for not letting Winnie know that she doesn't need to do anything other than share her light in play with all of us… :)) So for me that means - I can forgive myself for not always being light and airy … cuz sometimes I'm grumpy and crabby and in some of my own “pain”. ((((You know what? We're still 100% incredibly loveable))))
I'm on my way to Play Pod to play with you sweet darlin' friend of mine!
:)) peri
: ))) I love you Peri. Thanks for being on this planet playing with me. I wish I were joining you guys in Aug. Just not possible.
hugs